When the all of us get to know the date of getting result, all of us was like
"walao leh, so fast get result liao"
At that point of time, I want to know my result. Wondering what I will get. I have no idea of what result I'm getting. I don't have a target of result. Not much on the worrying side.
After the news release, one of senior told me that she read from a malay newspaper, reporting the overview of o' level result. The report wrote, for those NA students who took O level result in 2007 have done badly. Only 40% can manage to poly while the rest is advise to go ITE.
I was praying hard that i'm not in the 60% but the 40%!
On the way back home with Hup Lian, our conversation was to prepare for the worst. WORST! WORST!
Day passes day by day!!!
It 24/1/08.
Im suppose to have lunch together with my long time no see classmates at 12pm. Avoid been late, I set my alarm at 10.30am. I was woke up earlier then expected because of a call from li xuan. She told me that our english paper have done badly and there was no 100% passes. I jumped up of my bed after hearing this shocking news and we moved on discussing our result. the more we say, the more we get worried. My degree of worries was not as much as li xuan as I'm still in a sleeping mood. Perhaps I'm telling myself not to worry so much, my result won't be that worst. It's ok. Not to think about it. Nothing is going to shock me!
And also I take Raina's words.... Just treat it as a gathering to meet my classmates.
YEAH! This was the emotions that I brought along to CU and school hall. TELLING MYSELF NOT TO THINK MUCH!
At CU, I was able to crap a lot of shit. Laughing and laughing.
While we were waiting for our food to be served, xiao qing and li xuan recieved sms. One told me that there were only 4 students who score As for Art. Another one told me that our math and combine hum. has done well.
I guess most of us brought a heavy heart to school.
Upon walking up to school hall, we saw a geo. teacher, she told us that for combine hum. there was 10 students scoring As. Both li xuan and I was happy about this news. However for our eng, 5s2 english teacher shake her head. WELL, it not a good sign!
Sitting in the hall, looking at those sildes, all the MSG of all subjects have drop as compared to last year. Most were 5.+++. which means a C...wtf!
Mdn Oen then announced the MSG of 5S1. Mostly was GOOD! I can't remember which subject that Mdn Oen announced, both li xuan and I was overjoy and both our hands were hugging together. Damn HAPPY. However, the SAD thing was Mdn Oen din announced the MSG of our science and english. This 2 subjects were a burden for most of us. I have no confident in these 2 subjects as well.
Bla Bla Bla....
all about express students.
Finally, one of the slides show a list of names...
those was students scoring 10-15 pts.
By then, Li Xuan was very SCARED! She thought that she will be getting 16 pts which she DON'T WISH TO HAVE!
Finally, another slide showed :
1st- CHOO THECK SHENG 8PTS
2nd-JOSHUA 9PTS
3rd-CATHERINE 10 PTS LEE LI XUAN 10 PTS
I felt happy and proud of him.
Don't know how to explain.
finally its my turn to know my result.
then my heart starts to beat faster and faster! vi even asked li xuan to feel it!
How come your heartbeat so fast!!!! that what she said.
It my turn to get my result! When I get to see my result, my heart sunk!
BECAUSE I saw D7 in my report slip! WTF! huh! my angmoh D7! Mr Yeo, how to see I get how many points!!!
He told me to open up the envelope.
Walking back to my seats, I told me lin min I get D7 for english..... HOW!!!
SCARE... SCARE... SCARE... I can't open up the envelope properly! (im actually laughing at myself for such behavior)
Eventually I freak up! Din even have a proper look at my grades of other subjects! That D7 was a BIG BLOW to me! Because, the course that I want in RP, dip in technology and art management...
I COULD NOT GET IN!!! DAMN IT!
I end up having the urge to rush down to RP. Hup Lian told me not to do so. She told me to sit down and stay clam. LOOK through what are the courses that I can take!
My mind actually went BLANK, not knowing what to do and can't even think properly!
I'm not sure what was my emotion and I could not put into words as well.
1 thing I'm sure was...
TEARS filled up my eyes yet not rolling down. VERY DEPRESSED!
Went to meet Miss Hoe at her school together with Venice,Zhi Ti and Theck Sheng. We din really chat much. All my thoughts was still my result. Thinking what course Im going to take... Is it no way I can go to the DTA...
Dinner with Miss Hoe.
Back home,
I told my mother that I have only done badly for english and for the rest of my subjects I'm more or less happy for it. I even said that I could have actually done better. My father laughs at me. Saying: Over already still say this kind of words.
While checking on those courses I can choose, Theck sheng call and we chat. By then I was still numb by my result until theck sheng said:
Aiyo, yong shuang ar... Din expect you will gt D7. Very pity and wasted.
tsk. really wasted ar. Then I realised that REALLY WASTED! Because, I take my time to look at the grades of other subjects. I have 2As and 2Bs.
The As are good news.
As there were only 4 art students who scored As. Out of 30+ students, Im one of them. and, only 10 students scored As for combine hum. Again Out of 80+ students, Im 1 of them.
I'm proud of myself for that! As for the Bs I get, I'm also satisfy!
Screw up during Chem paper and din really study for the last paper(MCQ) and still manage to get a B3. I believed that I made a lot of mistakes and still a B3.
LOOKING AT THESE 4 SUBJECTS, I DARE TO SAY THAT I HAVE DONE WELL!
GETTING A D7 WAS A WASTE! IT SPOILED MY OVERALL CERT AND RESULT!
The more theck sheng carry on saying, the more I get upset! Tears rolled down my cheeks.
25th Jan,
Went np,sp and rp to out the courses!
I'm attracted to a course in SP, integrated events and programm management. Make up my mind for putting that as my 1st choice.
Next, RP.
First look of RP,"wow... such a big place and NICE". Things changed after knowing more about the course that I want badly and the system in RP! I MAKE UP MY MIND THAT I WILLNEVER STEP INTO RP AGAIN. I lost interest in that course I wanted. It not what I thought.
Back home.
Felt happy because I know what course I want, I like and I have high chance of getting in. Went home happily and spoke to my parents with GOOD mood. Explaining to them that I have actually done well except for ENGLISH but still its not that bad because D7 is still consider a pass in poly. Tell them not to worried as I can get into many courses. Keep nagging positive things to them and brainwash them at the same time.
My mother even CLAP her hands to act as a reward me. Says very good very good! Still ask me want to eat what.. she wants to treat me. But i kept quiet because I'M NOT LONGER A KID! THAT WONT PLEASE ME!THEN MY FATHER OFFERS ME A LAPTOP. I'm damn happy ar!Don't have to worry where the hell on earth to save up that 2k for a laptop when I have been overspending my pay! I was jumping around!
My aunt's call have confirm that I did well. I believed this call from her made my parents 100% believed in what I said earlier on.
Well, I know that a D7 for English will give everyone a bad impression on the overall results for sure. Been look down by others will not be surprising! Badmouth behind me was also not surprising as well, for been proud of my result which some of you think that I should be ashamed of myself. I'm comparing with myself but not others, I'm happy for myself though a D7 was shown on my result slip. According to news, many of NA students taking O lvl in 2007 have done badly! Well, comparing with this news, I'm much better which I think that I should be glad and satisfy and even proud of myself.
Alright. I shall stop the all these!
Im going to end this entry with pictures of sauna.
Went into sauna room for 1 hour. The rate of sweating was damn fast ar. We end up looking as if we have just showered!We moved on to steam room. TOTALLY CANNOT BREATHE! To help us with breathing we came out lots of nonsense. Bring a bucket of water and splash it around in the steam room. Open the glass door slightly to let some of the steam(hot water vapour) out! End up a guard came for checking why the toliet is filled of smoke... It actually our steam went out and occupied the toliet!
<5th feb
